Today

Frustrated
Passive, aggressive
Misunderstood
Heart in my hand
Bound by direction
Lips tightly pressed
Truth hidden
Desire within
Stop, start
Search for answers
Where do I run
When will this end
Hitting a brick wall
I find my true self
Disillusion
Misconstruction
Kicked in the gut
Unknowing
Oblivious
Left in a heap
Afraid but willing
Vulnerability
Time and time again
Frustrating
Edifying
The circle spins
Head up
Eyes flashing
Piercing the breast
Weary
Battle scarred
Fought for so long
How long until I can rest

i miss who we were
so innocent and naive
bright-eyed, hopeful, loving
and then reality hit
the damage seems unrepairable
phone calls, unanswered
forgiveness asked,
the request, lingering in the air

"Many promising reconciliations have broken down,while both parties came prepared to forgive,neither party came prepared to be forgivin."